university is no different from high school isn't it

schools still want money
they still forget about letting students go wild
did you know that DK is letting boys in now?
i wonder what will happen
i hope they'll make them wear sailor uniforms like the girls

i think i'm slowly drying up
nono
more like a orange
squeezed dry first then left to shrivel up in the sun

i am now constantly on the look out for the too safe too ordinary too general too trodden
if you strive too hard to be different
do you just end up like anybody else?
i think i'm busy
tests exams quizzes studying

soulfood
learn arabic
die my hair red
get a mohawk
chew purple gum
maybe i'll secretly go into communications
something like that

it's funny the high i get from talking to people
is that in the norm?
perhaps we are all like that to some extent
people need people even when we pretend we don't

people shy away from me
maybe i see too much
i like looking at the little things
backward glances
stripped down over analyzed

or maybe it's me
i'm picky i admit
stares come in all different shapes and sizes and weights
maybe it's they way i look back at people
there's this guy in my class
he can't look at you directly
i hate that
the look in his eye is saying a million things all at once
i don't need to know you but whatever

i've picked up the bad habit of aimlessly clicking around youtube searching for "the perfect song"
it has to be perfect
just the right lyrics
just the right music
just the right footage

i'm usually a Bon Jovi - Always - Live in London mood
i think it's the people in the footage that make it a winner
you can hear the audience echoing in the background
i don't know if you can though
weren't you a band player before you came back to the normal world?
my bf will be nearly deaf in five years from the likes of it ; )

it's funny how i can't see anyone arabic here
i'm still practicing on being a social light though

maybe i'll be a social fire alarm instead
that sounds much more interesting