I've been listening to Shin's one night in beijing
it's weirdly cleansing

maybe that just proves that I'm chinese

I pass my time with strangers but this bottle's my only friend

I fantisize about myself being able to down a bottle of whiskey just like THAT.

I hate the taste of alcohol too much to get anywhere with drinking, just the same way i've shied away from drinking anything with carbon dioxcide pumped into it for eighteen years.

I'm doing this "you think it for long enough and it happens" theory. I keep on telling myself that in fact I was a vodka downing Russian in my past life.

I hope it works.

Then again, no I don't.